Friday, January 17, 2014
Friday, January 10, 2014
Stepford’s Escape – 2 years post
It has been a long time
since I have written anything for this blog.
I have been pretty much mentally and emotionally paralyzed for the past
year. I honestly don’t know how to
describe what is going on with me. I
have lost my motivation to “live”. I am
not talking in the sense of wanting to whack myself (although I have given that
some serious thought a couple of times this past year). I mean that I just don’t feel like doing
ANYTHING; I would be content to just lie in the bed 24/7 and never get up.
I don’t even have a desire
to do makeup, and for anyone that knows me, you know that this is out of the
ordinary for me.
Added to my mental
lethargy, physically I feel rotten. My
head hurts, my knees hurt, my back hurts, my neck hurts, I can’t walk more than
a few yards without feeling like I am going to fall flat on my face.
And now to make matters
worse I am unemployed with less than $300 to my name. The job search is putting added stress on
me.
Unlike some of my fellow
exJdubs, my exit seems to be just as much a disaster as my life as an active
witness.
I feel like I am sinking
in quicksand in the middle of a deserted desert.
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